How to get the most out of being at a festival

Every Spring and Summer in England, Manjushri center, the mother center of the NKT, holds its international Dharma festivals.  These events are, for those who are fortunate enough to attend, the spiritual highlight of their year, and sometimes their entire lives.  The main function of festivals is to put our practice squarely back on the rails.  It realigns our spiritual sails so that we all move forward as a tradition, blown forward by the pure winds of our Guru’s blessings.  For a period of about 15 years, I was able to attend every major festival, including ITTP for five years.  I would like to share my personal lessons learned for how to get the most out of our festival experience.  In a later post, I will share my understanding of how to make the most of festival time, even when we are not able to attend physically.

First, we must realize just how lucky we are to be able to attend a Dharma festival.  We know from the Lamrim teachings that the odds of attaining a precious human life are the same as the blind turtle putting its head through that golden yoke.  But of those who have a precious human life, how many actually seize it?  And of those who seize it, how many are able to make it to the festival?  Of those who make it to festivals, how many are able to make it year after year?  I used to be able to, but then, for a variety of reasons beyond my control, my karma suddenly shifted.  In the last five years, I have only been able to physically get to one.  We don’t know our karma and we don’t know when the karma to be able to attend festivals might exhaust itself.  Therefore, it is best to assume – each and every festival that you attend – that this may be the last festival you are able to attend for the rest of your life.  A festival is the closest we get in this world to the pure land.  Quite literally, a festival is taking place in the pure land, it is only our ordinary view which prevents us from seeing it.  When we approach the gates of Manjushri, we are quite literally approaching the gates of heaven.  Never forget this, and make the strong determination to make the most of every moment while you are there.  But we should never have attachment to results at a festival.  We should be content just to create as many good causes as we can while we there.  We should not be in a hurry to harvest the Dharma, we should rather focus on planting as many seeds as we can.

The main purpose of the festivals, of course, is to attend the teachings.  At the festival we can receive teachings directly from Venerable Geshe-la’s principal representatives in this world.  He enters into their hearts and teaches us directly.  We should always imagine the teacher is really just a speaker connected to the stereo system of our Guru.  When you hear the teachings, remember you are hearing personal advice for how to solve your specific problems.  We sometimes might wonder how that can be when there are thousands of people in the audience.  The answer is while the words coming out of the teacher’s mouth might be the same, what we  understand them to mean within our own mind is different and personalized.  How?  Through the power of blessings.  All Dharma understanding that dawns in our mind actually arises through the power of blessings; and the specific understanding of Dharma we gain, in particular how we might put it into practice in our lives, is highly personalized.  The more faith you have in this process, the more personalized the taught advice will be.  It is very important to recall again and again the teachings on “how to listen to Dharma” and we should make a special point to put them into practice during the festival teachings.  The quality of our listening determines the quality of the teachings we receive.  Like everything else, it depends entirely upon our own mind.

The teachings are not limited to the time in which we are in the temple.  In fact, we can view every single encounter we have with every single person as emanated by our Guru to teach us something.  The person we happen to sit down next to at meal time, the person singing terribly but with a full heart three rows behind us, and even the people snoring in the tent next to us – all of them are emanated.  You will overhear conversations between people and be amazed how they are saying exactly what you need to hear.  You will suddenly “bump into” people at just the right time, or fail to find the friend you were looking for but meet somebody new.  What I used to do was I would walk around reciting Dorje Shugden’s mantra, requesting he take me to where I needed to go.  Then I would just walk and see what happened.  Even the rain and muddy grounds are all teachings.  If you view them as such, you will learn from them as such.  Some of our most precious teachings will come during our conversations with our Sangha friends.  While many people make this mistake, festivals are not the time for pretending we are always happy and that we are perfect Dharma practitioners.  Instead, festivals are the time to find that dear friend or former teacher who we have faith in and open our heart explaining our struggles in life and in our practice.  True friends are the ones who are there for you when you are in the greatest of need.  If you bring your problems to the festival, with faith that you will find the solutions, it is guaranteed you will find what you are looking for.

A festival truly is a family reunion, especially for those who have the good fortune to attend many of them.  A friend is simply somebody we hang out with for a time.  Family is for life.  Sangha is forever.  The global Kadampa family gets together essentially once a year, and going to Manjushri is, in a very real sense, going home.  View it that way.  Remember, everyone around you is your vajra brother and sister.  We are all part of the same family with a single mission, and we will be reunited together again and again in life after life working towards a common goal.  At festivals, many people have had the experience of meeting somebody for the first time, but the karma is such that it feels like we are meeting a long lost best friend.  We are.  When I am at a festival, of course I catch up with my close Sangha friends, but I always try make a point of sitting with people I don’t know at meals and I try do things I otherwise wouldn’t do.  You never know who you are going to meet.

One of the most important aspects of the festival experience is volunteering.  The entire festival runs on volunteers scurrying about, often unseen, making everything happen and creating the conditions in which we can enjoy the festival.  I think a good rule of thumb is you should volunteer for at least one task every day.  When I was in Paris, the teacher had a very interesting way of helping people with their problems.  Somebody would come to her with some worry, and instead of giving the person advice on how to solve it she would often give them some task to do for the center, such as distribute flyers, change the offering bowls, vacuum the gompa, etc.  Why would she do this?  Because the reason why we have problems is we either haven’t purified our karma or we lack sufficient merit.  Working for a Dharma center accomplishes both in abundance.  After the task is done, suddenly the problem is less severe or we have a wisdom which knows how to view the situation differently.  Of all the volunteer tasks one can do, I think volunteering to clean the toilets is supreme.  Why?  Because it is the worst job, and therefore by doing it we confront the most delusions, purify the most negative karma and accumulate the most merit.

Finally, don’t forget to give yourself some “alone with your thoughts” time.  During the breaks between sessions, I would often go to the North Wing gompa, where I could do some practice, work on my journal writing down what I was learning, or just sit and look at the statues and rejoice in the practice of those around me.  It is a quiet place you can go and be with your own thoughts and reflect deeply on the experiences you are having.  In the same way, you can go for walks in the woods or on the beach.  The point is, take the time to reflect – just you and your guru.  The last thing I do at the end of each festival is I try synthesize everything I have learned down into 3-4 new dedication prayers that I will make every day after the festival.  Sometimes people leave festivals with large ambitions on how they are going to change anything, only to get back home and be unable to act on a fraction of what they hoped.  Instead, make a few small commitments, small changes, but ones you plan on maintaining forever.  The dedication prayers should reflect these small commitments, and then every day when you recite them you are able to remind yourself of what you learned at the festival.

Festivals truly are a magical time – but this magic does not exist from its own side.  It depends on you having deep faith, the right view, a good motivation and a positive attitude.  Don’t expect anything special, just relate to everything in a special way.  Your guru is speaking to you through everything around you.  All you need do is learn how to listen and love.  I am so happy for all those who have the good fortune to attend festivals.  I pray that all beings may be able to have the opportunity.

Spiritual lessons of horrific violence

It is said that as the Dharma of Buddha Shakyamuni exhausts itself in this world the Age of Weapons will gradually begin to replace it.  This Age is characterized by the minds of living beings degenerating to the point where they view all objects through the lens of how they can be used to kill other people.  When I saw that a delivery truck plowed through hundreds of people celebrating on the beautiful streets of Nice, I realized the initial stirrings of the Age of Weapons has already begun.  My family this summer is travelling through Istanbul airport which was just bombed.  I have a close friend in Brussels who lost her sister (a mother of three young children) to the metro bombing.  Violence from terrorist attacks, mass shootings, the civil war in Syria, and the violent racial tensions between poor black and poor white in the United States are merely the leading edge of what will eventually become the new normal.  Geshe-la has said our job is to attain the union of Kadampa Buddhism and modern life.  Such violence is part of modern life, therefore we must learn how to transform incidents of violence in this world into something spiritually meaningful.

First, we should realize that we each have on our mind the karma to be the victim of such violence.  The only difference between ourselves and the victims we hear about is when that karma ripens.  We have all spent countless lifetimes in the lower realms where we engaged in violence like this on a daily basis.  Even if it is unlikely we would ever do such a thing in this life, we have done all of these things in the past many times, and the karma remains on our mind to suffer the consequences.  Attacks like these are a powerful reminder we need to purify our negative karma before it is too late.  Despite having been around the Dharma for many, many years, I still have not begun to take purification practice seriously.  Because my life is relatively free from severe suffering, I am lulled into a false sense of complacency and never begin cleaning up my mind.  When we see the violence in the world we should feel like we are looking into a magic mirror showing us our own future if we do not purify our negative karma.

The second thing we must do is identify within ourselves the same delusions which lead people to commit such acts – anger, pride in our views, attachment to our own happiness, jealousy and so forth.  Delusions are like weeds.  If they are not rooted out early, they grow and grow until eventually they take over everything.  If we can remove from our own mind the delusions which could cause us to engage in such violence, we protect ourselves from accumulating the karma which would make us its victim.  In particular, we need to be very careful to not rejoice in the violence we see.  Shortly after 9/11, I saw a video taken from a C-130 strike on a village in Afghanistan.  The C-130 is a gunship which flies slowly over its target area destroying anything underneath it.  The video showed the guns locking on fleeing villagers, shooting them down, and the gunner in a crazed tone hissing “Yes! Yes! Yes!” as he ended people’s lives.  More gut wrenching was my brother, who was watching the video with me, was likewise celebrating the murder of these people who had nothing to do with attacking America.  Venerable Tharchin said, “when a Palestinian celebrates the blowing up of a café in Israel, he creates the same karma as if he was the one who did the killing himself.”  In other words, the teachings on rejoicing cut both ways, rejoicing in virtue creates merit, rejoicing in harm creates negativity.  More profoundly, since the world we perceive is created by our own mind, a deluded mind creates a violent world; and a wise mind creates a pure world.  By removing the delusions within our mind, we begin to project a new world.

Third, we must generate compassion.  It is easy to generate compassion for the victims of violence, especially when they are people whom we consider part of “our tribe.”  Gays gunned down in a discotheque, innocent tourists blown up in airports on their way to summer vacation, black lives ended by those entrusted to “protect and serve,” white cops killed by a black war veteran, fellow Frenchmen crushed by a rampaging truck.  Such violence is as inexcusable as it is random.  Compassion comes easy.  But what about compassion for the perpetrators of the violence?  How much thought have we put into generating compassion for them?  They have been seized by their own delusions, manipulated by those with evil intent, and have just created the karmic causes to again and again suffer the same fate they have inflicted on their victims.  Terrorists are living beings too.  They have mothers who love them and raised them.  The purveyor of violence in this life is the victim of violence in the next.  The victim of violence has exhausted their negative karma; the perpetrator’s day of reckoning is still to come.  Both are equally victims, separated only by time.

Fourth, we must recall Geshe-la’s reminder that “love is the nuclear bomb that destroys all enemies.”  Geshe-la taught long ago that without inner peace, outer peace is impossible.  He encouraged us to imagine a world free from anger.  As the famous adage goes, “peace begins with me.”  We must generate love for everyone, in particular those who are propelled to commit violence.  We must free our own mind from delusions and cultivate inner peace.  We need to remove every last trace of anger from our own mind.  Then, through interacting with others, we gradually expand the sphere of peace around us until it eventually encompasses the whole world.  Love destroys our enemies because when we love them they cease to view us as their enemy.  When they no longer identify with themselves as such, they cease acting as enemies.  More profoundly, love destroys all our enemies because we cease to see anyone as our enemy, including those who harm us.  Because we know how to transform harm we receive into the path, even when they harm us we receive benefit, therefore for us they are our kind benefactors.  This does not mean we should not protect ourselves, nor does it mean we shouldn’t try stop somebody from committing violence if we can, rather it means we cease to view anyone as an enemy.  They are all our kind mothers, lost and confused.

People die of violence every day.  Whether their death has any meaning depends on us and how we respond to it.  Venerable Tharchin said it only takes a handful of true holy beings in the world to hold it back from falling into the abyss.  If every time such violence occurs, the global Kadampa community responds with wisdom and love, we can offer real protection for the people of this world.

Geshe-la says after the Age of Weapons comes a time in which bodhisattva’s from Tushita heaven come down into this world and teach love to those exhausted from war.  These bodhisattva’s gradually prepare the world for the coming of the next Buddha, Buddha Maitreya.  Who will these Bodhisattva’s be?  All of us.  Let our work begin.

Met with Geshe-la in my dreams last night

It has been a very long time since I had a dream with Geshe-la.  I met with him in my dreams last night and wanted to write it down before I forget (which I have done before and regretted).

It was some time in the future and I was able to go to a festival (something I haven’t been able to do in awhile). I was arriving late for some sort of big meeting with lots of people.  Geshe-la was not heading the meeting but was in the audience in the back row on the side and had been speaking with people before the meeting started.  When I walked in he saw me and I saw him and I very much wanted to meet with him but didn’t expect to be able to.  He nonetheless left his chair and went into the walkway behind the back row so he could speak with me.  I then got down and tried to do a mandala offering, but couldn’t remember the words nor get my fingers to do the right mudra.  I started becoming flustered.  He then tried to patiently explain to me how to do my fingers and say the words as if I was some beginner who didn’t know and who had never done it before.  I then became very attached to what he thinks of me and bothered by him thinking I was a beginner, like my pride had been wounded.  Wanting to make sure he knew I knew what I was doing, I then said, “I know how to do it, I am just very nervous.”

He then said,  “come with me” and we went back into a study/office that in the building which I understood to be where he normally works.  There was a little sign on the desk that said “20 minutes” which I understood was how long he was going to meet with me (something I have never had the karma to do).  He then started to get tea ready, but said, “actually, let’s go for a walk.”  We then went out, but even though he was very old he was like a tri-athlete.  He was running really fast in a park/track area and there was no way I nor anyone else could keep up with him, he was also climbing through trees like a seasoned climber.  I could basically just watch and I remember thinking, “it is important to exercise and stay physically in shape.”  I then knew I was about to wake up but thought I was going to fall back asleep and continue with the meeting when I did so I thought to myself, “I should remember what happened.”  I then woke up, it was still the middle of the night, so I tried to fall back asleep to get back in the dream.  I debated with myself whether I should just get up and write what happened or try fall back asleep.  I eventually fell back asleep, didn’t go back in the dream, but work up periodically between then and now each time trying to remember what happened and thinking I have to write it down when I get up.

It happens that people have dreams with Geshe-la.  I believe any dream we have with Geshe-la in it he is actually there and he is giving us a message.  Sometimes people ask others, “what do you think this dream means?” as if there is an objective meaning or code to interpreting dreams.  I personally think a dream means whatever we understand it to mean.  Nobody else can tell us what our dreams mean, rather they “mean” what Geshe-la blesses our mind to understand them to mean.  However, I don’t think there is any fault in sharing our dreams with others because then when they hear about our dream perhaps Geshe-la will bless their mind and they too will receive some message that they need to hear.  Perhaps not, but perhaps so.  For this reason, I share my dreams unless I understand I am not supposed to for some reason.

So what does my dream mean to me?  It seems there are several lessons.  First, it has been too long since I have been able to make it to some big event.  Second, we should always want to meet with Geshe-la, but not have any expectation of being able to do so.  These are the conditions in which the karma for a meeting can ripen.  Third, even though he is always busy helping many people, he nonetheless goes out of his way to take time to be with each one of us.  Fourth, we should not get flustered when we are with our spiritual father, rather we should relax and be happy.  Fifth, we shouldn’t feel threatened by our teachers considering us to be a beginner, rather we should embrace this attitude even if we have been practicing for a very long time.  Sixth, we should not be attached to what our teachers think of us nor develop pride in our Dharma knowledge or experience.  Seventh, even if Geshe-la is not leading the event, he is always there working for us in the background.  Eighth, we should not narrowly think of our Dharma training as just teachings or formal practice, but that it also includes seemingly mundane things like making tea and going for walks.  Ninth, appearances are deceptive, even though Geshe-la appeared to be very old he was full of vitality and energy and was running laps around everybody.  Tenth, as we get older it becomes increasingly important that we remain physically active and to stay in good shape.  Eleventh, our time with Geshe-la can end at any moment and we need to have a strong wish to meet with him again.  Twelfth, we never know when will be our last encounter with Geshe-la and we will never see him again.  I thought I was going to go back into the dream and see him again but I never did.  Lastly, I did, however, keep remembering that I have to remember all the messages he had given me, which I think in a broader sense is the most important meaning of my dream of them all.